Prior to that my life was an 'online' one. Years ago it wouldn't matter how many friends I had or how many nights I'd spend outside per week because I was so practical and focused on my job and college. I'm quite fed up with the status of my life right now. But it’s possible to be a happy person with depression. I have nobody in my life, nobody to live for.
It's usually the barrage of little things that get me.Įarlier today, I wanted to cry so I'd feel better. It can make you think irrationally and feel unreasonably and make you feel completely and utterly alone in the world. Usually I handle big things in life quite well, but the thing about my life is that when something goes wrong, everything that could possibly go wrong always does. The few friends I do have are all my boyfriends friends that I feel like I only hang out with when he’s around. I don’t have any friends and I haven’t made any while at college. Now I can't drink without spewing water from one side of my mouth, or eat without using my fingers to guide the food toward the molars. At night and when things get bad, I really don’t feel like I have anyone I could call if I just needed to cry. Before I even had the chance to take the first step, my asshole which has remained unused for three years somehow ended up with a recurring abscess, which finally started to look like it was under control this week, then suddenly half my face became completely paralyzed. Reframe it Practice gratitude Fill your house with sound Call a friend Make the most of your interactions Get outside Talk about your feelings Draw out. Lost touch with all my "friends" over the last two years because everyone had better things to worry about.įinally felt ready to put myself out there again.
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